It's Complicated

In the world of relationships, its always complicated.

I like you, you don't like me; someone else likes you and you don't like them. It's an endless love triangle of hook ups and missteps.

Why can't it just be straight forward? I like and you like me back. We want the same things but there are grey areas we can both live with and then we proceed from there. But real life is so messy with complicated people and relationships.

Now we have 'relationships' for sex only (sex buddies)- its called assisting the female folk, 'friends with benefits ship', 'let's see how it goes ships' etc. I am truly bone tired of all the bullshit because it all balls down to sex with no strings attached. Emotionless sex from people who might not remember your name the next morning or people who slept with to prove they could do or out of curiosity with no plans for the afterwards. It kinda sucks and leaves the other party in limbo because ... just because.

I am offended by the fact that people sleep around just because they are curious about to what it would feel like being with so and so person. Will I be able to seduce them and how far will I go to make it happen. They never think about the outcome. Sex is now a game or for some people I know, it's a stress ball. You have it to feel refreshed, to unclog your clouded brain or to exhaust yourself enough to sleep.

I am real angry at the triviality of it all. I feel like slapping people when they talk carelessly of a beautiful that was created by God. It is a bond between two people who say they love each other. The bond that comes from sex has a power that cannot be explained. Its a spiritual connection. I heard a story once about a couple for whom this connection worked. One had a headache and they just put their heads together and by the time they each went home, the ache was gone.

The power of connections. The right connection is all I seek.