Fighting Temptation

You know the feeling you get when you have a new toy as a kid and all you want to do is hold it, play with it and take it everywhere your go? That's the feeling i associate with attraction. It seldom lasts long, depending on intensity, but it can be distracting and makes you feel like a kid all over ago.

Short of labeling phone numbers 'Do Not Call' it can be a harrowing experience to 'Not Call, Text or Chat' with the attractor.

Temptation is alluring and compelling, once you've caught the bug it must run it's course. Which is another thing, there's no rule book on how long these things last - a day, month, year(s), forever (sob, sob). It goes something like this picture below.

I guess it's the wondering that gets us eventually. Seriously, do you really want to spend the rest of your life wondering what would have happened if you had succumbed and said 'To hell with it all. Tempt me ye Temptation'.

Uncertainty of the outcome is another thing i guess that halts us in our tracks when we are faced with temptations. Will i come out unharmed? Will I be the better for weakening? Is my heart strong enough to go all the way? The list of what ifs are endless but at some point you have to bite the bullet and decide. Sitting on the fence is not allowed. Second guessing is unattractive. Worrying will only make you age faster. Stressing about what people will think is childish (not entirely though). Just weigh the pros and cons and make a decision you're willing and able to live with for however long you're able to.

To succumb or not to succumb, that, my friend, is the Question.

Anything Is Possible

I was thinking about the phase 'Never Say Never' and thought back to the days when i used to say 'I would never do this or that'. How easily those words came to me back then but now i realize i have done almost everything on my list of 'nevers'

Life does teach one some valuable lessons
- Things seldom work out the way you plan it
- Friends never stay with you forever, if you're lucky, probably a handful
- Relationships are fleeting and very fragile
- Your heart is most likely stronger than you realise
- Temptation knows no half measures

Speaking of temptation, i have been in a constant battle to keep temptation at bay but the more i fight it, the more tempted i become. Yep, its one of my 'nevers' and daily i pray for the strength to resist.

The saying of being drawn like a moth to a flame is an apt description for what i'm gong through currently. Everyday is a struggle but life's battles are won one day at a time so i'm beating my temptation one day at a time (hopefully). One thing i've learnt from all this is

- DISTRACTION
- Being REALISTIC
- Telling yourself the TRUTH

This is what i've done and i realise that its easier to face myself daily and not hate myself for falling short of my expectations for myself.